Waiting For the Weekend

I don't know exactly why, but this week has seemed extremely frustrating to me. I just can't get a handle on it. I dunno--you ever have one of those weeks where everything breaks your way? You hit all the green lights on the way to work, you check the mail and instead of bills there is a nice surprise waiting for you, work goes better than usual, your teams win, somebody compliments you on your shirt, stuff like that?

Well, this week has been kind of the opposite of that. Nothing major, but just one little thing after another is conspiring to keep me pissed off at the world. Making a list might seem therapeutic, but I think it would just raise my blood pressure to have to think about it.

Oh, and to make matters worse, this is 'Cruise Week' with most of the rest of the family--they're taking off on Saturday for 10 days of fun in the Caribbean. Me? I'm here dealing low-limit blackjack to stiffs and degenerates instead of sitting on deck watching the ocean go by with an umbrella drink in my hand. Grrrr....

Some might say I need a vacation again. Certainly need to clear my head and re-evaluate a few things. Like if I really want to keep my current job. There were open auditions yesterday for tournament poker dealers with a certain casino, but the hours didn't jive with my schedule, so I had to pass on it. But early this morning while I was sitting out in the hot-tub thinking about stuff, I had to ask myself if I should feel any loyalty to my current employer. According to them, I'm worth only about 7 bucks an hour, and they expect me to just put up with all the stupid shiat they've been doing for the past couple of months that has done nothing but cost me money. I think, at this point, that if *any* opportunity came my way, I'm going to just say "f*ck it" and jump in with both feet. What do I have to lose? Clearly, I'm not happy where I am.

But regardless of my feelings, I'd really like to last until next May and get another couple of weeks of paid vacation out of them, and it would facilitate the whole Catalina sailing trip and March Madness much easier than stepping out and finding a new full-time job where I'm low man on the totem pole.

Ideally, I'd like to find a full-time poker gig somewhere else and drop back to the extra-board, only working part time, at my current casino. At this point, it just seems impossible to pull that off. Everybody seems to want to hire me part-time, on call, but be available 24/7. And I just can't do that with my current level of financial obligations.

Oh well. Catalina isn't going anywhere--March is cold and October would be better weather anyways. And as far as March Madness goes, the only things I *really* want to be involved in are the Friday night party at the IP, and the Saturday poker tournament. A few days of drinking and gambling aren't much fun when you wake up in Vegas and have to go back to work. So maybe I'll curtail my activities and limit myself to just Friday night-Saturday morning.

Hell, this is all just speculation at this point. Who knows what could happen tomorrow. Or next month.

Is it too early in the day to start drinking?

Mikey